如果我变成回忆

今年不是一个好年...

太多坏事发生了...

太多坏消息了...

好像打开了潘多拉的盒子，把一切坏事都释放出来了...
可是却又不知有没有像故事般，最后还有一点希望...
真的很想相信是有的...

常在想，万一有一天，我就这样走了，会不会有人记得我呢？
没信心...
可能连变成回忆都不会发生...
哈哈，所以tank可要比我好多了，至少可以变成回忆...XD

如果我变成回忆
词曲：TANK(吕建中)
演唱：TANK(吕建中)

累了 照惯例努力清醒着
也照惯例想你了
好怕一放心睡了 心跳在梦中
不听话的就停止了
听着 呼吸像浪潮摆动着
越美丽越让我忐忑
我还能珍惜什么
如果我连自己的脉搏 都难掌握

如果我变成回忆 退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体 拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己 如此狠心
如果我变成回忆 终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发
蹒跚牵着你 看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以让他陪你 我不怪你

快乐 什么时候会结束呢
哪一刻是最后一刻
想把你紧紧抱着
可知你是我生命中的 最舍不得

如果我变成回忆 退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体 拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己 如此狠心
如果我变成回忆 终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发
蹒跚牵着你 看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以 让他陪你
如果我变成回忆 最怕我太不争气
顽固的赖在空气 霸占你心里每一寸空隙
原来依然爱我的你痛苦承受失去
这样不公平 请你尽力 把我忘记 

Hokkien Mee?

lived thru the situation mention in the comic above (pls click it for a clearer view) when i 1st came to KL. am so confused tat time... haha. got use to it liao tho.

hmm... kind of missing the hokkien mee back at home... drooling...
P/S: i mean prawn mee in KL terms...

Reminiscence 2 - Mistery

hmm... cant reli tell which shadow is whose. haha.


eh, wen jiun, kah yie, wei meng, qris n suz jian, can help me out ah? hehe.

this was taken during our amsterdam trip. if my memory serve me correct, we r tryin to make av1 the same height in the photo, to help make sum1 dream come true. hehe. hoh wong kah yie hoh? XD

tat's all for now. any1 with an ans can let me know. tho i cant gv out the correct orientation also. haha.

Reminiscence 1 - Amsterdam

i hv decided to look back at all the photos i hv in my comp during my time in Glasgow bcoz it's one of the best moments in my life. so fr time to time, i wil post up a memorable photo to remind me of the gd time me n frens hv in Glasgow, n all the exciting trips we had during our time there.

wil b doing it alphabetically. so 1st up is ...

The big clog.

think u all muz hv seen this b4. yup, tat's the biggest clog i hv ever seen in my life. the photo was taken during the trip to amsterdam.

tat's it for now. hope wil hv time to update soon. see ya!

recent life update

life's been good to me recently. or i shud say, workin life seems to be betta after i went thru my clinical attachment. it's not tat bad, i jz dunno how to describe it, i jz dun reli enjoy it, pure n simple. altho sumtimes, it's the place u get the most job satisfaction from.

ok, now i'm at my 7th station. i've been to IPD (in-patient depart), OPD (out-patient depart) counselling, retail pharmacy, enforcement, clinical, OPD, and my current station, TDM (therapeutic drug monitoring). of all the stations, i think i enjoy the retail pharmacy the most, bcoz of the environment. the ppl there is nice, n the work itself is not stressful. n by the people there i dun mean the patients. sum patients r jz...... dunno how to describe, it's complicated. haha.

enforcement is boring. too bad for me bcoz during my attachement, it's adi yr end, n there's ntg much to do there. clinical as i said b4, so i jz skip it XD. opd counsellin is mainly to address patients' queries bout drugs they take, or teach the usage of sum devices. it's ok, not a bad experience.

ntg much to say bout opd n ipd. u jz repeat the thg u do, day in, day out. ntg interesting. haha.

jz pass my 1st week in tdm, so i stil dunno my feeling to it. i guess i wil enjoy it. it's another depart where u can get job satisfaction. basically, u jz monitor certain drugs patients are taking in certain wards. wil get a bit crazy if a lot of cases. ppl who lk maths wil probably enjoy it. haha.

work aside, i think i am getting use to the life in kl, i mean life in kl since i start workin. no more depressing episodes tat i hd early on. guess i adapted.

my bday jz passed. jz lk to thx av1 for celeb it wif me. thx for gift. thx for the diy card. appreciate it a lot. hving u guys as frens is one of the best thg happen in my life. haha.

been kind of disappointed bout sumthg lately. mayb i am the one expecting too much. so it's nobody fault but my own. haha. i tot i was considered as a buddy, but guess i'm not. oh well, life goes on. haha.

apart fr the negative thg up there, avthg else is fine. living my life happily, enjoying my workin life also. tho sumtimes it wil get boring, but i wil getby.

tat's all for now. adios...

写在生日前夕

数一数，我已经有两个多月没在这里写一些东西了。哈哈，所以就让我在生日前一天来写一篇无聊的文章吧。

农历新年刚过了不久。许多命理专家说肖鼠的朋友在今年的运程不错。我不知道到底这些一年出来一次的专家所说的有多准。我一贯秉持着，不好的，当着是提示，好的就当着参考。当然，我也希望有好运气。 哈哈。我很好奇，有没有人对这些预言做出调查，看他们到底有多准。I mean do a statistical test. 哈哈。

鼠年结束前，美国发生了次贷金融风暴，拖累了全球的经济。很多人都希望，在牛年里可以扭转乾坤，让经济好起来。不是我个人悲观，而是在这大环境下不容许我们过于乐观吧。当中国都为自己的经济而担心时，试问我们，马来西亚，能够独善其身吗？然而，我们的领袖似乎一点危机感都没，还在那儿拼政治，搞风搞雨。请问，我应该乐观吗？

最近马来西亚最热门的动物应该是青蛙吧？哈哈。你可别看轻这些青蛙哦，区区的四只青蛙，足以让一个州政府倒台，厉害吧？有一只还弹跳力十足，跳东又跳西，有够‘梗’！哈哈。就是这个动物，让马来西亚的民主摔了一大跤。投票，选举有何用？不如直接拿席位来拍卖吧，价高者得。这就是这一闹剧所体现的道理。可悲。。。虽然我不是该州的子民，可是我真替他们不值。虽说有些前州政府人员我也看不顺眼，可是这简直就是离谱透顶，把人民当傻子耍了一顿，还把自己说得理所当然，一点都没错。

开始习惯了在KL工作的日子。当然还是一样的期待着每个星期的尾声。哈哈。可能我是天生的大懒虫吧，工作的日子里，我都是抱着得过且过的心理。我想应该改变这心态，可是我想我应该是改不来的啦，说了算。哈哈。

每次想到未来，就有点担心。总觉得钱好像永远都不够。真好奇，到底那些有能力买房又买车的人是如何做到的？我的薪水，数来数去好像都不足够让我去做这些东西呢？唉。。。我想明年我必须开始找兼职了。要好好计划将来。

明天是我的生日，我想在这里许下我的生日愿望，

1。父母健健康康

2。工作顺利，身体健康，赚多多钱，花少少钱

3。马来西亚经济快快好转，民主快快进步

4。世界和平 （老土呗？哈哈。。。）

5。秘密 （嘻嘻。。。）

噢。。。会不会太贪心了？哎呀，一年一次，可以啦，hoh？

Anyway, 祝我生日快乐。哈哈。

恍然

天真啊！我只能说我真的是天真到极点，还是说我是蠢到极点？

原来有些东西是不可让人知道的，无论你多么的需要一个人来了解与开解，尤其是如果你是一个男生。

身为一个男子汉大丈夫，你必须有能力去承担一切，不管情况有多糟。

曾经以为时代不同了，我未必须要如此地做，但事实证明了，这种想法是多么的愚蠢，多么的幼稚。身为男生，你还是最好别呈现出你脆弱的一面，否则你不会被同情，反而会被耻笑，被人当笑柄。

哈哈，或许是我太天真吧！

我只能说，如果一个人不是本身身在那个处境，他们是永远都不会了解，永远都不会。人，习惯性都是从自己的观点出发。

不了解，无所谓，可是别拿人来开玩笑，因为你不知道那人是否认真地。因为我们都很难了解那人的感受。因为这会使那人很受伤。

经过这次，我会好好收拾我的心情，从此再也不会让人看见我那一面，再也不会。也不需要人的同情，一切还是留在心中最好。

哇！！！感觉好多了！我将会是另一个人！