恍然

天真啊！我只能说我真的是天真到极点，还是说我是蠢到极点？

原来有些东西是不可让人知道的，无论你多么的需要一个人来了解与开解，尤其是如果你是一个男生。

身为一个男子汉大丈夫，你必须有能力去承担一切，不管情况有多糟。

曾经以为时代不同了，我未必须要如此地做，但事实证明了，这种想法是多么的愚蠢，多么的幼稚。身为男生，你还是最好别呈现出你脆弱的一面，否则你不会被同情，反而会被耻笑，被人当笑柄。

哈哈，或许是我太天真吧！

我只能说，如果一个人不是本身身在那个处境，他们是永远都不会了解，永远都不会。人，习惯性都是从自己的观点出发。

不了解，无所谓，可是别拿人来开玩笑，因为你不知道那人是否认真地。因为我们都很难了解那人的感受。因为这会使那人很受伤。

经过这次，我会好好收拾我的心情，从此再也不会让人看见我那一面，再也不会。也不需要人的同情，一切还是留在心中最好。

哇！！！感觉好多了！我将会是另一个人！

What's wrong?

wonder wat the heck is wrong wif me?

i am not like this, at least i am not lk this until now...

is it bcoz of the loneliness? guess being the only child make me scare of being alone.

when studying is diff... u hv ur classmates to accompany u. now when workin, especially outstation, u wil nd to do avthg on ur own. n i am the only outstation ppl workin at the hukm, which means tat i reli hv to do avthg on my own. only my shadow is accompanying me.

i wish i hv a companion which can do thgs together wif me. not tat i dun appreciate the fact tat i am here in kl, rather being sent to sum ulu places. but to think of it, i rather go to ulu places wif a bunch of frens, den stayin alone in a big city.

there r so many ppl in the city, but it make u feel even more lonely bcoz av1 has sumbody, but u r all alone.

no 1 for me to turn to...mayb i shud go see a psychologist to occupy my time.

reli dunno wat to do. hate this sucky feelings. is it i am too free? but i hv assignments i nd to do, exam i nd to study. so y am i lk this?

time filled wif works n time filled wif frens are diff i think.

guess i shud not complain too much. shud b grateful tat at least i am all alone at kl not at sum ulu places. guess i am jz lazy to make new frens all over agn. lazy to socialise...

how contradicting, feelin lonely but here i am bcuming more anti-social...

see, i reli nd a psychologist...

ok, enuf of the nonsense thg...

most of my frens got their posting, sum wil b at kl, sum wil b goin outstation. so which means fewer ppl wil b at kl liao...

to all the ppl who is goin to start work soon, all the best ya. and to my frens who is goin outstation, rmb to keep in touch.

After So Long

Been nagged by sum1 consistently bout updating my blog (u know who u r, XD). so, to fulfilled her requirements, so tat she wil stop saying i 'jiu yun song', i decided to update my blog, but this wil b a short one, since tmr i nd to work, n now is adi 1.13 am.

hmm...have been workin for almost a month, in fact, after this coming wed, i officially worked for a month liao. haha. how's workin life? dun feel lk a pharmacist yet, feel more lk a student still. a lot of thgs tat i dunno, n sumtimes feel lk i am so so so so DUMB!!! haha.

eh...nvr imagine tat i wil hv monday blues...now i certainly und wat is mon blue...haha. when sun come, reli wish the time wil stop den. i reli wish i hv hiro nakamura power (if u watch heroes, u know wat i mean).

and i nvr imagine i wil hv homesick. haha. for a person lk me, tat's lk asking the sun to rise fr the west. haih...for the 1st week n 2nd week, i reli dun feel so good. hving stayin alone in kl, far away fr my family. most of colleagues are local kl ppl, this means tat, i hv to eat dinner all by myself. i alwiz hate to eat alone. but wat can i do? sad...

but now i think i kind of getting use to it. i hope i hv...

workin ppl life is so consistent. avday wake up at 6.45, go work, eat lunch, cont. work, fin work, go eat dinner, on9 a while, den sleep agn. repeat this cycle agn tmr... n alwiz wish for weekend to come asap...haha.

ok, my wish for this month, is not to depend on frens so much. muz get use to living alone. all my frens hv their thgs to do also... muz keep remiding myself bout tat. haha.

tat's it for now, wil tel more details bout my work, next post i think. if oni i wil update lah. haha.

Spain-Portugal Preview

Temple de Sagrada Familia, Barcelona, Spain. Taken on 7th Jun. 2008

City Hall, Porto, Portugal. Taken on 10th Jun. 2008

wah...too many trips, too little time for me to update. so, i wil jz upload a pic fr each country tat i visited. will update bout the trip when i got more time on my hand.

my next trip is GREECE! haha. cant wait. it's one of the countries tat i wanted to visit the most. will be goin to on the 18th of June. den wil b visiting London agn until 26th.

my convo is on 30th. went to hire kilt yday. the tartans tat i chose is hunting stewart. hehe. cant show it yet. wait til i collect it on 27th, den i wil post it up. haha. 1st time wearing kilt, am veli excited.

got so many thg for to b excited about. one word to describe, hyperexcited! haha.

and i pass my Mpharm course liao! and my classification is Distinction. yeah! i am done wif studying.

Italy - Preview

muahaha...guess u guys know wat is this rite? hehe. Went to Italy from 21st til 29th. here's a pic of the most famous building in rome. will post more in a few days time. rmb to check back.

For You Guys

"Good Luck in Studies" Charm from Onion Club

this entry is a dedication to my classmates who are goin to sit for PP3 exam next tuesday.

GAMBATEH!!!

u guys can do it. jz go into the exam room n do ya thg. rmb to stay calm n jz do ur best. i know u guys can do it, without a doubt.

hope this charm wil bring u guys lots of luck in the exam.

ALL THE BEST!

we shall graduate together!

Spring is here, but so is Final Exam

Winter shot. Taken on 03 Mar. 2008 Spring is here. Taken on 05 May 2008

without me realising, the tree outside my window start to grow leaves compare to their botak (bald) condition in winter. i think this signals tat spring is here. the weather of the past few days were jz great. veli bright n sunny. i think this muz b a veli big deal for all the angmohs, coz we constantly see them sitting outside the grass, doin different kind of stuffs. one day we even saw a gal wearing bikini man! jz lk in the beach. haha. if only they were in M'sia. hehe, get it? (aiya, they wil b wearing bikini all the time lah! XD)

2 of my final paper had passed. i think i did moderately ok. hope can pass. esp CPP (Clinical Pharmacology and Precribing), this shitty paper which u cant reli prepared much about it, and u nd to ans 10 qs in 3 hrs which the mark ranges fr 5 marks to 20 marks for each q. hell, it's lk writting an assignment in 3 hrs time ok. on top of tat, u nd to read thru a journal paper to ans the q. however, sum impt part of the paper, lk the abstract, conclusion and some part of discussion were removed, which make it harder to understand the paper, let alone answering the q. i reli dun understand the purpose of doing so. one of the objective of this subject is to improve and to help us in understanding study paper. but wil the studies papers tat we read in real life hv these few parts missing? obviously no rite? so why bother removing it? soli, i jz cant unnderstand the logic. jz hope tat i wont flunk this subject (finger crossed).

3 more papers to go. haih...reli lazy to study. my last final exam, guess i shud cherish the moment rite? coz after this, no more final exam adi. but dun think i wil miss it tho. lol. cant wait til 21st. tat's when the exam ends, when the holidays start, and when i wil b bz tripping wif frens. haha. yes yes, more tour, more tour!

Fate

The football ticket that did not arrive in time. Taken on 29 Apr. 2008

Got the ticket fr kim hoe a few weeks back. dun hv time to post an entry bout it. been bz studying for my final final exam. finally found a wee bit of time to post an entry.

haih... if oni the ticket arrive on time. now this has bcum one of my biggest disappointment in my one yr stay over here in the uk. plan to go to anfield agn for another match this sat, but too bad, all the tickets hv been sold out. well, i guess this is fate. haih....

anyway, promise myself, next time i wil save money after i start working, den i wil fly back here and go for a match at stanley park, the new stadium. i must make this dream come true. haha.

hmm...mayb during the holiday shud ask kim hoe to go liverpool agn for the stadium tour. den at least i been into the stadium. haha. will think bout it...

oklah, tat's it for now. shud continue back to my study.

if i can...la...la...la...

Keukenhof Garden

here's the update of the visit to the keukenhof garden when wer in amsterdam. actually, this is the main purpose of this trip, to see beatiful tulips n all kind of flowers.

all the pic was taken on 07 Apr 2008. enjoy! hope i wont bored u tho...

Greeted by these 4 beauties playing their music. lol.

Some nice views of the garden.


Guess wat is this? the answer is at the end of this blog entry. hehe.

WARNING!
following are a whole bunch of flowers pic taken in keukenhof garden. if u dislike flower and find it boring, it is highly recommended u quickly scroll down and skip all of it.

unfortunately i cant take down all the flowers name. there are jz too many to take note. oh well, jz enjoy the view of it.

*yes, this is sakura. n no i din go to japan XD

the following are the flowers that they grow in the green house. damn nice leh all the flowers.

*i particularly rmb this flower name bcoz it is called ice-cream. haha.

we were wee bit disappointed as the garden flowers were not in full bloom. oni those in the green house are blooming gloriously. so we din get to take pic lk the one we saw in the postcard, where the flowers farm are blooming with all the colourful flowers.

this is the best tat we can do. at least got sum colour lah. haha.

nonetheless, it is stil veli nice. all the flowers were too pretty until they look lk fake one. lol. the 19 euro for this visit was worth it.

there are actually sum more photos which i hvnt collect fr my frens. mayb wil updat agn bout it, and mayb not. see, i am suppose to study for my final liao. but i am jz lazy. yet agn. haha.

tat's it for now. wil update agn when i am free.

*the animal u saw earlier was actually a chicken. hehe. did u guess correctly?