Monday, October 27, 2008

What's wrong?

wonder wat the heck is wrong wif me?

i am not like this, at least i am not lk this until now...

is it bcoz of the loneliness? guess being the only child make me scare of being alone.

when studying is diff... u hv ur classmates to accompany u. now when workin, especially outstation, u wil nd to do avthg on ur own. n i am the only outstation ppl workin at the hukm, which means tat i reli hv to do avthg on my own. only my shadow is accompanying me.

i wish i hv a companion which can do thgs together wif me. not tat i dun appreciate the fact tat i am here in kl, rather being sent to sum ulu places. but to think of it, i rather go to ulu places wif a bunch of frens, den stayin alone in a big city.

there r so many ppl in the city, but it make u feel even more lonely bcoz av1 has sumbody, but u r all alone.

no 1 for me to turn to...mayb i shud go see a psychologist to occupy my time.

reli dunno wat to do. hate this sucky feelings. is it i am too free? but i hv assignments i nd to do, exam i nd to study. so y am i lk this?

time filled wif works n time filled wif frens are diff i think.

guess i shud not complain too much. shud b grateful tat at least i am all alone at kl not at sum ulu places. guess i am jz lazy to make new frens all over agn. lazy to socialise...

how contradicting, feelin lonely but here i am bcuming more anti-social...

see, i reli nd a psychologist...

ok, enuf of the nonsense thg...

most of my frens got their posting, sum wil b at kl, sum wil b goin outstation. so which means fewer ppl wil b at kl liao...

to all the ppl who is goin to start work soon, all the best ya. and to my frens who is goin outstation, rmb to keep in touch.

2 comments:

Christina Kam said...

su miin...so cam meh...lonely...u can ajak ppl stayin around taman midah go yum cha ma...

ti3nD said...

SM, mm sai yao, join me dagei only, turn the worries into first blood, lets pawn and make the enemy GG-ied! haha! when u hav probs, for the least, u still hav us in ur msn contact larh!