What's wrong?

wonder wat the heck is wrong wif me?

i am not like this, at least i am not lk this until now...

is it bcoz of the loneliness? guess being the only child make me scare of being alone.

when studying is diff... u hv ur classmates to accompany u. now when workin, especially outstation, u wil nd to do avthg on ur own. n i am the only outstation ppl workin at the hukm, which means tat i reli hv to do avthg on my own. only my shadow is accompanying me.

i wish i hv a companion which can do thgs together wif me. not tat i dun appreciate the fact tat i am here in kl, rather being sent to sum ulu places. but to think of it, i rather go to ulu places wif a bunch of frens, den stayin alone in a big city.

there r so many ppl in the city, but it make u feel even more lonely bcoz av1 has sumbody, but u r all alone.

no 1 for me to turn to...mayb i shud go see a psychologist to occupy my time.

reli dunno wat to do. hate this sucky feelings. is it i am too free? but i hv assignments i nd to do, exam i nd to study. so y am i lk this?

time filled wif works n time filled wif frens are diff i think.

guess i shud not complain too much. shud b grateful tat at least i am all alone at kl not at sum ulu places. guess i am jz lazy to make new frens all over agn. lazy to socialise...

how contradicting, feelin lonely but here i am bcuming more anti-social...

see, i reli nd a psychologist...

ok, enuf of the nonsense thg...

most of my frens got their posting, sum wil b at kl, sum wil b goin outstation. so which means fewer ppl wil b at kl liao...

to all the ppl who is goin to start work soon, all the best ya. and to my frens who is goin outstation, rmb to keep in touch.

After So Long

Been nagged by sum1 consistently bout updating my blog (u know who u r, XD). so, to fulfilled her requirements, so tat she wil stop saying i 'jiu yun song', i decided to update my blog, but this wil b a short one, since tmr i nd to work, n now is adi 1.13 am.

hmm...have been workin for almost a month, in fact, after this coming wed, i officially worked for a month liao. haha. how's workin life? dun feel lk a pharmacist yet, feel more lk a student still. a lot of thgs tat i dunno, n sumtimes feel lk i am so so so so DUMB!!! haha.

eh...nvr imagine tat i wil hv monday blues...now i certainly und wat is mon blue...haha. when sun come, reli wish the time wil stop den. i reli wish i hv hiro nakamura power (if u watch heroes, u know wat i mean).

and i nvr imagine i wil hv homesick. haha. for a person lk me, tat's lk asking the sun to rise fr the west. haih...for the 1st week n 2nd week, i reli dun feel so good. hving stayin alone in kl, far away fr my family. most of colleagues are local kl ppl, this means tat, i hv to eat dinner all by myself. i alwiz hate to eat alone. but wat can i do? sad...

but now i think i kind of getting use to it. i hope i hv...

workin ppl life is so consistent. avday wake up at 6.45, go work, eat lunch, cont. work, fin work, go eat dinner, on9 a while, den sleep agn. repeat this cycle agn tmr... n alwiz wish for weekend to come asap...haha.

ok, my wish for this month, is not to depend on frens so much. muz get use to living alone. all my frens hv their thgs to do also... muz keep remiding myself bout tat. haha.

tat's it for now, wil tel more details bout my work, next post i think. if oni i wil update lah. haha.